Flying Toaster Oven

I’m one of those wallflowers from highschool who are now more outspoken and peeps i know can’t imagine that I was once so shy that I dreaded raising my hand or being called upon.  I would rather be invisible.  I knew the answers when my classmates didn’t but my shyness overrode any desire for unwanted attention.  I skated through high school doing ok and scoring well on placement tests but with mediocre grades. So much so, that in college, I barely made it through freshman year.  Entering college as an undeclared major, I took one course in Accounting and was so bored I declared that I was not going to major in business.  Ironically, I work in corporate America and should I have taken something more fun like Advertising 101 or Marketing 101, perhaps, I would have taken a different path or done even better than where I am.  Not that I’m complaining since I’m doing well but maybe even more so?  After just not getting it, I dropped Accounting 101 like a hot potato swearing that I could never get it.   Interestingly enough, I learned on the job among other skills and had jobs coveted by others.  I feel blessed that I had those opportunities but it took patience and perseverance in interviewing for these positions.  Even internally, it can be a challenge in switching jobs.  The change in me now is that I know I can handle more difficult subject matters that would have been a mental scotoma in my earlier years.  I’m even interested in stats and econ more than ever.  What happened?   I realized looking back that I was not encouraged that I could be in business.  That it was better to pursue a medical or legal profession.  Liking what I do wasn’t even in the equation and grades which equated to scholarships was the focus.  I believe this led to me feeling so displaced and not knowing what I really wanted when I graduated from college.  Plus it wasnt a great job market.  I had to make my own opportunities, no one was knocking on my door.  I look at my comrades who graduated with me and many were in the same boat.  Many also went back to school and continued their education.  I, on the other hand, chose to keep seeking.  Well I moved out of state two times to two different states.  I started with virtually nothing and after making money, buying “things” just didnt give me the same satisfaction.  I still dream about being a writer full time but I’m torn about making money and being able to provide for my family.  
I thought about going back for an MBA but after calculating the ROI and X# of years left in the workforce, I figured it really will not help me.  I dont want to take out another student loan but I will find a way to learn and educate myself on a acontinuous basis. 

I really do think that sometimes our brains click differently through life experiences and things that were a challenge before are not any more.   And interestingly enough, the things that were effortless in the past are now so difficult!

How many of us have the same resolutions?  Lose weight, get in better shape, eat less, etc.? 

I’m curious to know if there are folks that have resolutions that sound like this: be kinder to others, don’t flick off someone who cuts you off, be more patient, spend more time with parents?
It just seems that every resolution starts off with good intentions and then we reflect back at the end of the year and either forget what these resolutions were or failed miserably within a day. 

I know this year though it’s different. I will not say I’ll lose weight or try to exercise more this year.  I’ll just do it without telling anyone.  I feel like even if I have accountability partners, for some reason my psyche is so programmed to not follow through.  Perhaps childhood trauma and/or issues about food. 

Like many others, I’ve been through the yo-yo phases but lately, I’m not even yo-yoing which means that I’m not even following through long enough for any results.

I’ve been receiving quite a few comments from bloggers in Russia, however, I can’t decipher what’s being said. Does anyone know if there’s a tool on how to interpret Russian? I think and hope these are positive comments!

There’s something so endearing about Adam Richman on Man vs. Food.  He’s a combination of humor, honesty and just a bundle of fun.  I was just thinking how come there’s no equivalent show about women consuming ungodly amounts of food.  Obviously, it wouldnt work.  I mean how “gross” would that be especially in this superficial society and the double standard on women?  At the rate that Adam consumes the thousands of calories, his female counterpart would undoubtedly show a significant weight gain.  While Adam has a slightly portly appearance, it adds to his endearing qualities.  He looks like a cute husky guy.  On a woman, not so cute!  Hey, but that’s ok.  I really like Adam.  The crowd cheers for him and he just seems like a fun-lovin’ dude.  I’ll gladly attend any of his food challenges.  I still think that that’s gotta hurt and really wonder what his cholesterol level is?!

I’ve been receiving comments from those in other countries.  Thank you but I have no idea of what you’re saying in your comments.  Or maybe I don’t want to know?!  

No offense but I will not respond if I can’t decipher your lingo.  And if your site seems inappropriate, I won’t respond either.  

So then I wonder if these comments were even meant for me.  Maybe there was a technical glitch or some programming where many bloggers received the same comments?  
I’m still learning but thought I would make my thoughts known in cyberspace.

Is it just me or is there a plethora of ghost reality shows lately? All these shows have the same style, the grainy and dark videos.  Then the same observations,”  The room is cold.”  “I feel negative energy.”  I have to wonder if there are for real or just fiction. 
I was completely fooled by one show, “Lost Tapes” and really believed this as actual footage.

Now I do believe evil spirits exist but as far as the definition of “ghosts” goes I don’t believe in actual ghosts per se especially the machinations of Hollywood horror flicks.  
But all these ghost reality shows just don’t convince me.
I really think I can explain the “cold” one feels especially in older buildings.   This is something I’ve noticed before too but didnt refer to it as a potential.

I’ll be trying out different themes until I find one I feel really comfortable with.  This latest theme update is not as visually interesting but until I can be more consistent with my camera and uploading pics, this willl have to do for now.  Also, my blog may move to another site.  I’m aiming to have this happen early 2010.   Interesting to note the comments that are sent to me.  DIdnt realize that they are not automatically posted and have to be approved by me.  Originally i didnt feel comfortable having my friends read my blog with the fear that theywould not agree with my opinions or thought process and I claimed that I was more comfortable with strangers reading my posts.  Now I’m curious to know just how many people are actually reading my posts!  Not everyone comments and just lurks.  That said, I will try to avoid any mention of politics which seems to be a real sticky issue with most.

went on a shopping blitz yesterday after church and almost finished.  I leave the wrapping of gifts to hubby.  Next I have to buy food for 2 more potlucks. 

So I decided not to get too caught up with racing to get our Christmas photos.  Maybe after Christmas, I’ll get the photos out or maybe just post them on FB.  I realized why this rush and stress that stems from it and lose the real meaning and focus of Christmas.

I just realized how I grossly misspelled my last posting.  Instead of philandering, I wrote filandering?  What was I thinking?! I’m realizing how forgetful I’m getting.

Not to mention that since last night, my tummy has been acting up.  Not sure if it’s a virus or indigestion.  So I’m home sick today from work.  Coughing so hard it hurts all over too.

What’s with these guys?  Kobe, Jon Gosselin and now Tiger?  C’mon Tiger, what happened?  These are guys we look up to married to beautiful wives and yes, nothing is perfect, we may not know the whole story but c’mon, your wives are looking a lot less “evil”. 

That said, Kobe’s wife gets a uber jumbo sized ring.  Ok, forget Jon since that’s a done deal… so Tiger, is Elin getting some beautiful make-up jewelry.  12 allegeded affairs = 12 pieces of jewelry.  Never mind, I think Elin can buy anything she wants when she’s done with you.  I do hope Tiger works it out.  He should get a second (or is it 3rd) chance even if he doesnt deserve it.  It’s nice to hear that he’s taking a break to try to work things out.  I was so disappointed to see how much Jon seems to be spriraling out of control.  What happened to Jon?  Was he always like that but didnt show us the real him, suppressing his true feelings when he really wanted to belt Kate or did he get his first taste of freedom and just lost control?  for the kids sake, buckle down and stop being so self-centered and self indulgent even with your anger.  Get over it and work on healing even if you arent getting back with Kate.

Normally I like the rain but this weekend, I was hoping it would let up.  You see, there’s an annual this weekend only showcase of biblical times.  A nearby church hosts this real meaning of Christmas with the birth of Christ and actors all in character donned in period clothing complete with camels, etc.  Even food’s for sale and the church provides you with the coinage.   This event was quite fun this year but this year hubby forewarned me that it would rain all weekend which also dashes any hope of a trip to D-land.  I mainly wanted to see the Christmas displays and parade for my son.

Ahh but we signed up for the Santa breakfast next weekend.  That’s a first time for us this year.  If it’s a one time only deal, we’ll go back to South Coast for our annual photo with Santa tradition finished off with a trip to the Rain Forest Cafe.

Still not done with Christmas shopping.